Yeah, right. Even the willow, when bent to far, will eventually break. Lucky me, another week of being a failure. It’s like free-falling: I find myself at the mercy of others, whether that be other people or the world in general. Just for a little while, can’t I go back to the way things were… Continue reading Be the willow that bends…
Tag: depression
I think I’ll throw myself a pity party
You know, I try. I work full time. I’m a mother, wife, sister, aunt, and daughter. I consider myself a damn good employee. Familiar roles consist of chauffeur, chef, and cheerleader. Occasionally, I get asked to be a confidante as well. I try. I really do. Then why do I feel like such a failure?… Continue reading I think I’ll throw myself a pity party
Continuing the journey
I’ve let a little bit of time pass since my last update because I wanted to see how well Jordan did on meds and in a home situation. It’s kind of interesting that the school psychologist seemed so concerned, yet Jordan seems so much the same. Of course, she has changed. She’s not as internalized… Continue reading Continuing the journey
Not over yet…
but getting closer. My baby came home today! After I picked her, we went to The Hat for roast beef sandwiches. She got about three bites in and nearly gagged on a hair. Not her hair, either. Needless to say, we got our money back and threw the sandwich away. Because, ew. After “lunch” it… Continue reading Not over yet…
Can I get a do-over please?
I’d like to start the week over. Maybe then, I could have followed the tracks I needed to have it end up differently. I don’t believe in hell (or heaven, for that matter), but I understand the concept, the pain, associated with it. Even though I feel like I’ve been through the ringer all week,… Continue reading Can I get a do-over please?
Does it ever end?
There are no words to describe the ripping feeling that accompanies the horror that was yesterday. Yesterday, I watched as my beautiful, vibrant, energetic, 14 year old daughter was removed by ambulance from the school campus and taken to a mental health facility for a mandatory 72 hour hold. You see, that’s what they do… Continue reading Does it ever end?
Is it time for school already?
It’s been nine months since I last updated this blog. I could have had a baby in that time! … Yeah. No, not gonna happen. It’s had to tell if things have changed or not. At least with Christian. He’s removed himself from all of his medications and is actually learning how to cope with… Continue reading Is it time for school already?
Change on the horizon
After experiencing one setback after another at school, I think we’ve finally made some progress on the education front. Over the past couple of weeks, getting Christian to go to school has gone from challenging to impossible. On days that he does attend, he ends up in the counselor’s office wanting to come home. I… Continue reading Change on the horizon
Calm before the storm?
With the exception of an incident over the weekend, Christian has been fairly well collected. No major meltdowns, no deadset refusals to take meds, no tantrums. He’s been alert, paying attention, cooperative, and even pleasant. I remember all of those personality traits from years before, but it’s been so long since I’ve seen this side… Continue reading Calm before the storm?
Making it all come together
After taking a break from therapy for about a month and a half, Christian is back to seeing his therapist once a week. So far, a great deal of his treatment has been driven by him. We’ve let him make decisions about therapy, medication, treatment options, and goal-setting. The reason behind that is to give… Continue reading Making it all come together