I’m not sure if Alan knows that I’m recording all of this, and if he does know, I’m not sure how he feels about it. He certainly hasn’t said anything, not that he’s read it. I’m cataloging this more for me, so I don’t forget things, than for public consumption anyway. If anyone does read… Continue reading Worse than Expected
Category: challenges
Rough Roads Ahead
157. That was one of Alan’s most recent PSA levels. He’s doing another blood test tomorrow to get updated numbers. Depending on the context, that number is meaningless. In this case, that number is bad. Very bad. PSA levels should be 4 or less, so a value of 157 after radiation therapy is not a… Continue reading Rough Roads Ahead
PSA
PSA is not just a public service announcement.
It’s not looking good, Lowe’s
All I wanted was a washer. Now I want my money back, too.
The end of an era
Today was difficult. My family and I cleaned out mom’s apartment. It was somewhat surprising to discover how little she actually owned. She had only lived in her tiny one-bedroom apartment in California’s high desert for about 18 months. It seems like there was more ‘stuff’ when she moved in then what what we ultimately… Continue reading The end of an era
When it rains, it pours
Saying goodbye isn’t easy, but saying goodbye to my mom is harder than I ever imagined. This is so difficult. It hurts and it’s painful, and I knew it would happen eventually. I’m not ready yet.
I think I’m having a … medical emergency.
Those were frightening words to begin with, and the fact that I was the one saying them is even more terrifying. My life has been upside down and backward for well over a year, pre-pandemic. Work has been overwhelming, and I’ve been wholly unsupported by my boss. Before he was my boss, we got along… Continue reading I think I’m having a … medical emergency.
The word of the day is ‘shitshow’
Have you ever had so much going on in your life and mind that you can’t keep it all straight? It just becomes so overwhelming sometimes. Between the nightmare of an election oddly bothering me, making our way through a pandemic, my eldest child constantly and continuously pushing me to the limits, an ineffective and… Continue reading The word of the day is ‘shitshow’
Mental Health Check – Failed
Today is yet another experience of watching my son’s descent into the abyss of mental illness. The past year has been hell and I thought there was a clearing on the horizon, but it seems that it’s been one storm after another. These past few months have been even worse: a DUI resulting in a… Continue reading Mental Health Check – Failed
So many thoughts running through my head
These past few months have solidified my need to restart my regular journaling. I really need to start tracking some of my daily tasks, pending and processing duties, expectations, conversations, and anything else that can be quantified as CYA. I’m still not sure what the hell is going on, but my disappointment and frustration with… Continue reading So many thoughts running through my head